- mizzhaily turns red

5 years

It's been 5 years and 4 months

since

this blog ever existed

it has grown since...

it's so hard to let go

because

i've grown to love everything

about this blog

the outlook

and the name

its all im contented with

something that i would like to hold on

forever.

i had wanted to hold on

to this blog

to this address........a little longer

double the time, maybe

but

i have to stop posting

on to this address

this URL

im making a new one

i will not make it known

here

but i will tell you

if you just ask me in person

so long mizzhailybelo...

10:18

creep

we met 4 years ago

my gosh its been 4 years?

i remembered

the first time i saw you

i liked the way you styled your hair

it was the kind that you styled

and the rest followed

den u stopped styling like dat

coz everybody is doing it

you settled to normal

we exchanged numbers

but we never contact each other

we only talk wen we met

never in 4 years

not until yesterday

out of the blue

you messaged me

havent seen you for a while

something is definitely not right

and you're not telling me

funny

that one simple msg can be such a shock to me

you didnt say anything out of ordinary

so i shant jump the gun here

just yet

...

i have another issue

which is directed to me recently

im just gonna say this

dont blame me OR others for

what your life has become right now

tink where loyalty lies within your circle

why it never existed?

its not because we're all fucked up

you are

...

oh yes..

i need to clear something up

before people think otherwise

i was chilling out with raff after work

and

this picture right here

was the wallpaper for my handphone

raff was like, "I've seen this one before..you went out with **** and had this picture taken.."

i said WHAT THE FUCK

for those who've been tricked

the picture above is taken on FADLI'S BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR

we were waiting for Fadli to come down because we were making a surprise party for him

it was uploaded on friendster and facebook

so its easy for people to just take it down

placed in their creepy handphone wallpaper

and tell fucked up LIES to people

you tell him we went out on a date and dat you were the one taking that picture of me

fuck you

we never done any of that you creep

WHAT YOU HAVE DONE IS CREEPY AND FUCKING LOW

you are what i thought you are

"i'm not like all guys..." shit you

you disgust me

im so glad i never believe ANYTHING you've said to me

you're goals in life are as fucked up as you are

BE GONE

you motherfucker-good-for-nothing fucking fuck fuck

youre a sad excuse for a guy

i hate liars

and I DESPISE THEM

as far as i know

you're one of them

...

it only takes a liar

...

my brother's way of denying a girl's offer on a date

was classic

some shameless girl from friendster just asked him out for a meetup

his fabricated excuse was...

"I just fell down the stairs and I broke my frontal teeth so I have a gap in my mouth,"

and the stupid girl never contacted him ever again.

its either she got the hint or that she's so fucking shallow

that she doesnt want to go out with a guy with a gap in between in teeth

either way it doesnt matter

my brother got rid of her

its so funny

Labels: creep

00:11

IT show

went to IT fair twice with fadli
the first time along with fida
the place...
hmm...
HANTU siol
fadli did not intend to buy anything there
but just to accompany me
but he ended up buying something too
and
yours truly
bought a super big external HDD - 640GB
(like fuckin' FINALLY document backups for my poor Emi Suejitsu)
at a very cheap price
2 thumbdrives 4GB and 2GB
of course the smaller one is for my brother
which made that little bastard very happy
and an external USB ports
for that extremely pampered Chilli Padi

i had a fun time at the fair
laughing my ass off
fadli was crazy in love with the rotating coloured USB port
but he broke the ports apart
in which he dared not buy
what an idiot

i just striked off 3 items from my important to-buy list

the kid came to me
and asked
"what are you doing?"
i said
"you're not suppose to be here you pathetic little loser. now get lost!"
i tink
it'll take that stupid kid 10 more years to fully understand what pathetic means
and
that girl whose at the computer most of the time
have insulted him 10 years ago
wad a bitch, he finally realised

maybe i should just say, "get the fuck away"
so he'll be so curious and ask his mother
what fuck means
just like how i asked my mother what it meant
15 years ago

10:34

dont smile

i dont smile

i have serious issues with smiley people

i hate people smiling at me for no reason

i dont make them smile

why are they smiling at me

smiley smiling people are fake

fake

fuckin' fake

aah...

world of hypocrisy

i get it

i fuckin' get it

but

i wont succumb to that world

smiles are lies

i hate lies

liars

smile when u're amused

smile when u think of something sweet/good

smile when u're a sadist motherfarker

dont smile to/for people

smile to yourself

smile for yourself

a benefit you gain by yourself

and thats...genuine

crazy people smile to themselves because they're real

they dont care about what others might think of them

its that 'others' who think people who smile to themselves are crazy

its that 'others' who are fake

picture this.

i made a lame joke.

u either laugh or you said, "thats fuckin' lame."

u smile, u know its lame but u dont want me to know

because ure a fake

and

a liar

what about this.

i pick a shirt and i said its cool

u either agree or you disagree

u smile, you think i have bad taste

but u aint telling me

do you get me?

do you fuckin' get me?

and the i-know-something-you-dont-know-smile

its fucked up

but imma like it

i wont be deceived by those who smile.

the world is not as flowery as you hope it would be

when theres people

theres no peace

accept that

so long smiley motherfuckers.

15:03

forever the cutest

year 2 is finally over

23:44

every reason to love

my life is complete with just the 5 of us
i wouldnt ask for more

15:10

let go

i saw someone i shouldnt be seeing yesterday

on my way to work

from afar

i fucking saw him

i remember vividly

the way he walks from the back

his build

and

his height

seeing him so near

so real

angers me

i couldnt tell how i could find the guts

to just

try to follow him and find him where he'd disappeared to

in his fucked up territory

up till now,

i still needed that sincere apology

coming out of his own stupid mouth

too bad

just fucking too bad

he disappeared before i could catch up with him

i had that full desire to pick my legs up to run

like a predator eyeing for its prey

but

i controlled myself

not to become such monsters

its not worth it

fucking hell he wasnt

at all

if i were to be able to taste the blood in my mouth

i wouldnt have been satisfied

so long motherfuckers

18:34