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Promises,Promises,Promises!
i hate it when people promise me and they never keep their word..I hate it when I promise people to go anywhere and they cancel at the last minute when you are already gotten ready to go out..What? you expect me to change back into my own clothes just because you are so fuckin sleepy that you dont want to go out? "Su, I can't go eat with ya because i'm going to have lunch with my brother..I'll eat with you next time, I promise!" but you never eat with me did ya? or "Su I can't come to your open house coz Im working..i'll cum next time, I promise!" and i never see your stupid face at my doorstep and now Hari Raya is over! or "I promise I will never get drunk..." but i see me using my money to take you home, your body leanin against mine for support, reek of alcohol with your breath fuckin nasty and your speech so slurred..and you walked SO STRAIGHT! WHAT THE FUCK YOU ALL TAKE ME FOR, HUH?? Do i look so pathetic to you fuckers? Do I always make promises and then break em all? Are you guys getting me back or wad? Hey, look at the red sentences above..IF YOU NEVER SAY THE WORD 'PROMISE', I WOULD NEVER GET PISSED!!! So Fas, when I asked you out and i cant go out because i need to wait for the repairman, did i promise you that i could meet you the next day and did i come? YES..Jo,you have known me for 5 years now, tell me if I ever did diz to u? Tell me,Fas, Jo or anyone of you reading this did i ever break any of my promises..I did before I know but I did say sorry, right? it's not fun to be victimised by these derisory nonsense! why are you making my life miserable? what is it did i do to deserve this? is it my fuckin character? Fuck You All! I am not changing just because you are happy..Im not changing because of YOU..Im not changin, dammit..because YOU pissed me off! The reason why im such a bitch is because of you fuckers who cant stop immolatin me..im such a fool to be fallin into your trap..im like an imbecile innocent who is SOOOO stupid that she goes to the middle of a shooting riot and got killed in the end..i felt like a gladiator being sent to the amphitheatre and a nice piece of steak slung around my stoopid neck for the starvin lions or shud i say beasts? What the hell..You people always told me,"All you have to do is just smile.." Good! Im just about to change for the better..To smile to people..But now,the way I've been treated is like you people never meant it..WHO CARES whether I smile or not, huh? Is it better if I dont smile and people dont dare befriend with me? You dont have to waste your bloody time making my already despicable life more despondent than it is now.. I feel more hurt than ever..i feel manipulated by you people..what gain have you got from it? TELL ME!! Im just so cheated..
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