its been a long time since i rhyme,
my anger is disembarked and its time,
i hate wad im feelin rite now,
feelin abt wastin my time goin to skool,
wen all i worry about is money,
ha.its funny,
that i dun give a hoot abt money or education,
its abt owning andlosing my own posession,
shit things happen coz every month i had to pay 45 bucks for train concession,
wad is skool wen all i tink is "Pay School Fees",
and its not even the end of semester yet but they're released the lease,
please,whats diz?
its like paying school fees but givin skool a miss,
wads the point of skool wen u do ur own hw and the rest juz copy,
"Sue,i dunno how to do my report, give me ur floppy",
"Dude, me too man but i go crazy researchin' on the Net to do diz report. Do u even try?",
Kinda feelin' crappy,
wen all i tink dat skool is more impt than my health,
try my best to tink how skool cud bring me to great wealth,
but rite now, im sittin down here in lecture hall, in absolute stealth,
aint listenin to the lecture,mind's in terrible havoc, tinkin for once abt myself,
i tryna werk to support myself 24/7 ,
but ppl kept using me for my pay ,
im not selfish wif money coz it'll never make my day,
but FUCK YOU, doesnt mean im paid, u can take advantage of me as u may,
dats not the way,
my Dad dont believe i cud cope wif it,
wen i ask "Wh0's gonna pay $355 every semester?", he shuts his mouth,
damn it, ppl juz dun believe in me, but I DO SO QUIT IT,
i can do it, i know i cud and i dun shit it,
u dun like see me achievin, I DUN GIVE A FUCK, so live with it,
u cant change me, so stop it, i tink u've had enough,
wen u go up north and u see me, u went back down south,
WHY? u tink i tink im tough?,
YOU made me tink u tink i tink im tough, so be it, I AM!,
get it? No? suckers!,
i've screwed u, u tried to fucked me up, den i shut up, u go mute,
im through,
i tried to render other peeps' feelings,i tink i shud,
but if u help me out, im pissed, i tink i cud,
and if u cooperate with me so u hope i'll b nice to u, AS IF I WOULD

im tired, sleepy and agitated.fuck.gdnyte.forever.ha.

10 June
Farhan's father passed away this faithful Friday (innalilahiwa'innalillahirawji'un). Im sorry Farhan. I have 3 losses before and they're nothing like losing our parents. I know how it feels to lose a person you love but i do not know how it feels to lose a parent we all truly love. No matter wad, we, the psst..phamily would always be here with you. You have a family at home and a phamily outside home. You'll always be beseiged by love wherever you go. nobody could tell how truly you feel and wad you were really thinkin' behind those warm smile and the sweet dimple.You'll always be our Farhan and always will be..Love You.

11 June- Saturday
a late entry of my belated bday..duh~ a party was a success with (proudly) overflowing with my own friends..2 surprise visits by my dearest bestfriend, Joanna (she's suppose to be @ Rawa Island wif her family!) and a babe, Mazy!!
Class of 2003 4E1 (JX,Dq,Weikit,Nich,James,Faliq), Sab! You made it! Psst..Phamily! you guys are the greatest people i've met! Muacks muacks muacks!! Mark,veshnu (or watever..i forgot his name la), Faliq, Fariq and his lil' bro (erm..Boy wad they call him) uh..uh..who else? dunno ALOT la..oh yea, Nigel..Nuh and Barney and Cher..thanks for cumin!!
Siti, Praba, Fhasha and Jannah and Amir! thanks guys!
Mas, Ajay and Shasha..woo!!! great timing guys..we're all fuckin' sleepy
Hizami and the gang..
Khairul..thanks for comin,though how tired and sleepy u are.
18th birthday I never forget..thanks guys!
oh yea btw, Nich, i'll do another party on my 21st bday..u haf my werd on it.

12 June- Sunday
a dreaded Sunday..everybody is slackin ard esp. me...tired and sleepy..nvr went to werk..lazy tired sleepy and goddammit juz LAZY..haha

13 June- Monday
the most dreaded week has come: School. Fuckin' hate school. ask Nadiah..i nvr bring my books during lecture..she might b wonderin wad i must b doin..the thing is i dunno either..

14 June- Tuesday
1- Jon's bday.nvr came back frm Aust.nvr heard frm him.nvr even called me or Abg Saiful.not even until today.i hope u fuckin' die eaten by fuckin' Great White Sharks dat existed in Australian coastlines. Fucker.

2- Suppose to werk today.but i didnt knoe abt it.Kak hannah overlooked my schedule.told me i start werk on fri.shit.miss 2 days of salary.this month's salary is gonna b pathetic.wad the fuck.

3-Lost my fuckin' ATM card again.three times in a row.FUCK IT.

15 June- Wednesday
- Got a fuckin' freakin' bloody' rabak giler babi anak sundal punye news: My ex-primary school fren IS GETTIN MARRIED!!! GUFFAWS!!!! AAAAAHHHH!!! OHMY GOD..Still recovering from shock...................................................................................................................................................

-Got a letter frm NYP abt school fees. Fees has been raised. Fuckin chibai. I ought not to school. its juz a fuckin' waste of my fuckin' time. fuckin' goddammit. mother fuckin' schoool

16 June- Thursday
Slack sial today...fuckin hell..no skool and no werk..got to finish all the reports i haf, give to nad tomorrow so she could pass it up to the fuckin lecturers next week wen im gone.

17 June- Friday
WERK! WERK! WERK!
Things i need to pass to Nad today....
1) Reports
2) Tap Card
3) Her m1 bill
4) my brain

18 June- Saturday
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19 June-22 June Sunday-Wednesday
LEAVING TO KL!!!! GOODBYEEEE SUUUCCCKKKKERRRRSSSSS!!!!

People noe i nvr pick up phone when anyone calls at home or at werk unless you call me on my hp.i might pick it up if i can feel the vibration.havin an old skool phone wif no polyphonic ringtone, camera or mp3 whatsoever, i nvr really had my phone ringtone on.i put it on silent.so i haf the habit.of not pickin up my phone.but if you are the dun gif up type,u mite irritate me n i wud juz pick up the phone WITH a frustrated voice.
an event juz foul up my mood is wen someone called me at home.i was juz lazing ard the house waitin 4 e clock to strike 4pm for me to get ready for werk.the home phone rings.and rings.and rings.and rings.and rings.and rings.ok u all get it.i nvr pick up the phone.then it stops.then it rings AGAIN.and rings like crazy.for an interval,it stops and it starts ringing again.its fuckin irritating! i decided to pick up the phone with the tone of the voice that whoever at the end of the line gets baffled.and its from COURTS (an Indonesian- she speaks malay) for my 2nd sis.
Me: HELLO!
Courts (C): Is Diana there?
Me: NO
C: Is this Mustaqim?
Me: NO
C: Who is this then?
Me: WHO ARE YOU?
C: Who are you?
Me: YOU CALLED ME AND YOU ASKED ME WHO I AM?
C: I'm from Courts.
Me: WHOEVER YOU LOOKIN' FOR SHE'S NOT IN.
C: Are you the brother?
Me: NO
C: Who are you to her then?
Me: KAKAK DIER PUNYE LAKI (Direct translation is "Her sister's husband" but in a way to insult the other person)
C: Is diz your mother's place?
Me: YA LA DEN?
C: Is your mother in?
Me: NO
C: So ur sister not livin' wif u and ur mom?
Me: NO
C: Where is she livin'?
Me: DLM LOBANG JUBOR AKU (In my asshole)
C: Come on tell me whr she's livin?
Me: HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW??
C: Your own sister also dunno!
Me: BECOZ UNLIKE SOME PPL I DONT PROBE ABT PPL'S LIFE. I DONT KNOW YOU SO I DONT DIVULGE ANYONE'S INFORMATION GODDAMMIT.IF YOU EXCUSE ME,IM LEAVIN' GOODBYE!
Then i fuckin put down the phone promising myself not to ever pick up the phone no matter how many times the phone rings and how long the caller could take my stubborness.anyway, all my frens called me by my hp not my home phone.i nvr give my home no. to school to anyway so wads the point pickin it up wen none is for me! muahahaha! ok i dunno why i laugh.ooh shits it 4:10 gotta get ready for werk.

wassup ya'll.juz came back frm werk.no actually after werk went for breakfast wif Kak Hannah and Ida a.k.a 'Gelang (anklet) sisters.' Had alot of fun reminiscing, spotting ppl and teasin each other.it was the craziest day.now waitin for the washin machine to finish washin my clothes.werkin at alley bar later in the evening.gonna haf another session of breakfast.diz time wif Epit (Ida's sayang). Raff might not be able to come as he is werkin frm 12am-9am.furthermore, he's sick.went home early diz mornin.nvr join us.crap him.planned to go Batam one of the days wif the Gelang sisters.it'll be fun and cool.will b leaving singapore on the 19th June for a trip to KL wif the Rouge bartenders.alot of happenin will be planned this month.the fact dat its the 1st month of school.ah..fuck school..gona skip three days of it during my time in KL anyways.haha.
anyway,i dun tink many ppl would read diz blog to tell u idiots abt my bday on the 11th June. There will b a bday party in a chalet.Remeber diz: ITS CHILDREN-SAFE chalet.therefore dont expect more like BOOZE!! PLEASE LA!!
it'll b @ East Coast but i still not sure whr exactly.will update more soon.hope ya'll will make urself free on the day. oh crap i jz wanna sleep rite now. talkin abr crap, i tink im gonna SHIt first.c ya soon!