- mizzhaily turns red

let go

i saw someone i shouldnt be seeing yesterday

on my way to work

from afar

i fucking saw him

i remember vividly

the way he walks from the back

his build

and

his height

seeing him so near

so real

angers me

i couldnt tell how i could find the guts

to just

try to follow him and find him where he'd disappeared to

in his fucked up territory

up till now,

i still needed that sincere apology

coming out of his own stupid mouth

too bad

just fucking too bad

he disappeared before i could catch up with him

i had that full desire to pick my legs up to run

like a predator eyeing for its prey

but

i controlled myself

not to become such monsters

its not worth it

fucking hell he wasnt

at all

if i were to be able to taste the blood in my mouth

i wouldnt have been satisfied

so long motherfuckers

18:34

truth

2nd Jan 2009
me and the gang celebrated our 9 years anniversary of friendship.
real friendship.
it has been 9 years huh?
ah i haf great loyal friends
i just wish i didnt lock myself away in my own world
and
be too individualistic
and be such a freakin workaholic
sometimes
i haf to be part of someone
or people,
sweep my ego aside
and lean on friends
whom i realise will always be there when i need them
truths were surfaced
some were hard to believe
others were relieving
but most of all...everything has come to a light
...
speaking about truths
recently
ive found out the cold hard truth
about
something...
its heart-wrenching
throat choking
air gasping
truth
but it was worth it
to finally know the whole truth
truth hurts as always
but its always good to know
im relieved
we all need closure
no matter how bad or good it is
...
2009

the year i haf suddenly
become
AMBITIOUS

step hero

trying to do
AND
achieve

heck alot of things at once

01:29