- mizzhaily turns red

no tongue just lips

if i wasnt sick

i would haf kissed you all over

just you wait

until im well......

17:16

memoir remnants

i was looking for my earrings
that
i packed away when i moved out
and
i found this ring that i used to wear around my neck
yes,
i didnt dump it away
it wasn't mine to throw anyway
so i kept it somewhere safe
wondering about how
i am to return the ring back
up until last night when i found it
i couldnt figure out how i could find a way to return him
now i know how
i didnt know how i could be so stupid
it took more than a year to figure this out
what the hell
maybe for the past year i have been so self-centered
undoubtedly,i still keep the ring
a part of me still care
a whole other part of me was...WELL...really a hell load of anger
heh
anyway, that ring has GOT TO GO
a really goodfren of mine
will help me with the rest
but he doesnt knoe dat yet
heheheehehe

so there
...
ah shucks
Saiful's 7th year death anniversary is coming up
feels like just yesterday it was his 6th
why so fast?

you've been good to me
thats why its so hard to let go

00:05

blue moon's up

this is one of those revolution years
where
i decided to switch on my EmiLap
and blog
...
the past few months have been fun and HELL
...
am i a girl who scares the shit out of you
even if i didnt say anything at all?
do something wrong to me the nite before
and
wimped out the day after
WHAT THE FUCK?
-chickens-
aint MAN enough to even face me
why scared of this girl's spiteful dirty little mouth?
YOU'RE JUST SO FUCKING DIRTY I JUST WANT TO SPIT AT YOUR FACE!
FUCK!
so angry sey...wad the hell...
you're all the same la
just like asshole
and
i
am
an
idiot
heh.
...
been busy with lots of other stuffs
havent been doing much practising lately
kind of fell back behind
and
im guilty as hell
...
2 more years
1 year to work
get scholarship the year after
3 years overseas studies
and i'll be 27 by then
...
i have a sketchbook that havent been touched for months

13:27