hanging...
i dont know what to do now
i just want to think
i think
and
think
and think
and
think
i might as well just shoot myself in the head
or hang myself in my room
hehe
nah..
these images actually goes thru my head
and i like it virtually
because someone
just made a shithead out of me
i dun need you
i dun anyone to treat me like piss to tell me
indirectly
that im not good enough
im never am good enough
neither is anyone
especially not you
man..you're a coward
you dodge when im around
its not like i want to care
im not stupid
u fucking coward
ha!
growing animosity has taken over me
i really hate you..
you're not really appreciative arent you
i accepted your dirty past
i accepted your social life
i accepted your shitness and your flaws
i accepted YOUR STUPID MISTAKE
i knew you were lying to me but i forgave you
you took advantage of my kindness
and you try to step over my head
since you cant do that,
you left me hanging
you thik i could be affected by that??
you think disappearing is going to make me bawl out my eyes, fall on my knees and ask you to come back to me again..
oh fuck..no way am i going to be that stupid again
it was a mistake..
and when you open your eyes tomorrow and the first thing that comes to your mind is to have the courage to give me a call
think about this bitch,
expect something more from me than a, "Mmmm..." in my conversation
im through
and
im done
i know wad an asshole and a coward you are
you are not wad you convinced me to be
you are as good as a fucking liar
right from the start
i have never meant this before
but now,
a matrep will always be a matrep
i will not forgive myself for believing in matreps like you
shitness...
...
im going for a loooong run now
hopefully,
im able
to
think and feel better
after the run..
Labels: go for a run
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