although im not in the best of my moodz,
frenz cum to me for rectifyin advicez
although diz may sound a bit crude
but i hate listenin to all the shit dat happen to their life
listenin to their stoopid probz,itz burnin my ass
sittin there firing my earz complainin at their side
im confessin,
i hate to listen like i give a bloody shit abt wadz been happenin
itz not dat i give a freak dat their girlfren'z heart they'd been breakin
itz nice for you to tink dat i care
but i dun if i know you dun exist here
i can explain to you all freakz usin my flair
listenin to your problemz iz not wad i cud bear
im confessin
i hate you people whom i called frenz been blabberin
about me being a bitch, thankz datz very flatterin
givin me the loser look, very appealin
your attitude towardz my creativity makes me bitchin
stop the pathetic confrontationz coz im lovin diz
i hate all these people im meetin and you're in my hate-list
fanatically egoistic, before callin me namez, give my huge ass a kizz
dumbasz mother-freak rhink they're so big
only the time when i give you a piece of my mind, den you'll freak
im confessin,
i hate people who said they're appreciatin my werk
sayin dat i cud be a freakin writer, juz give me a break
freakin liar i got az frenz
callin me freakin poseur and a wannabe brand
jealousy has ripped through their remotely useless heartz
not like some people i truly understand how ya feelin like readin a damn chart
haha!being jealous of me iz a common thing to see
i knoe im good and im wae better den you
i can write songz wif my mind broad, wide and free
like swimmin freely in the sea
wad im confessin here are all true
im bringin back are all my bad memoriez and all the bluez
itz history but it keep repeatin itself
all along i haf been hidin my feelingz in the shelf
but now, i am smarter den dat
i am ultimately better, im fresh, werdz of venge in my brain gettin a lil' fat
burstin to be released of all the resention
here are my confessionz

Stammerin wif werdz spillin my mouth,
vocabulary diminishin in my mind
cant say it out loud but i like to take back wadz mine
my heart'z aint opein
bullshit thingz happen in my life ain't leavin
wad can i do to make these go away
my life haz gone awry
my mind'z gone array
my heart'z startin to expitiate
i cannot take diz anymore of diz shit
i want to run away, far away from here
but nowhere to go and itz the outside world i fear
may God bless me...

Bro dear,
To look at the bright side
and open your heart wide
build up the courage for you heart to fight
like releasin anger through the wall cagin me
crushin the brick wallz releasin you free
open yoursekf wif the outside world
alotta thingz you're seein dat you're not quite sure
itz rewardin to set your eyez onto the little thingz, unnoticed
learn to be bold and strong
bow down to the Sun as if itz a prayin priest
wonderful it may seemed but it haz all gone wrong
lost again in the busy throngz
comin back to reality, im the shithead here...
I'm sorry...

This song is dedicated to my bro, Hao...remember i wrote diz song in tutorial room...the day you broke down and when everything in your world iz just isnt rite. the day you think people were lookin down at you and ignored you..hell, bro..u dun know how much people cared about you. the best thing in the world that has happened to me is knowin you as my bro...im sorry whatever i did to you to make you so small and weak inside..itz not meant to be..you're a great guy and i know you dun deserve it..love you loadz bro and mizz you ALOT!!
the 2nd verse of the song iz my say to you..

Like Irfan (my bestfriend'z boyfriend) alwayz sayz Patience Iz A Virtue. My dearest most greatest dad in the whole wide world just applied internet for my home eversince i told him to disconnect the internet eonz ago coz I HATE FUCKIN COMPUTERZ N THE INTERNET AS WELL...well you knoe, the reason why i ask dad to disconnect the last one coz i totally wrestle wif my comp az it kept gettin all caught up and i mezz up the software and watever then the stupid technology machine shit just broke down in irritatin defeat against an ultimate supreme being: ME. Muahahahahaha! I suffered after the endearin' battle coz goin into stupid poly involvez too much machinery...! I hate it! All around me, my new friendz, my clazzmatez, all they ever talk about iz Computer Shit. What? Gamin and stuffz and the school had this E-learnin the one that Greenview tried to broadcast before but failed coz itz a freakin BIG FAILURE TO ME! Why am i so caught up rite now? haha! Firstly, my dad placed diz cute lil thingy at my bedside. it lookz like a mouse but BIGGER version. When my visual activity getz adapted to the surroundin light oh well...itz a modem. i dun noe a modem lookz like a comp mouse. hahahaha! my dad msged me and told me to install it and i waz like, "Dad, you ask me to install? Are you sure?" and he waz like, "Sure! Sure!" then he hang up the phone. trust him not to say bye and just hang up on me just like dat. Love you just the way you are Dad! anyway, Suhaily, being a freakin egoistic gurl, i never read the manualz. FOR WHAT? waste my damn time. i just put in the CD then it install by itself. it ask me to connect the modem to the comp and then to the telephone port...The computer ask me to do things???? itz good that compz doesnt haf feelingz... the comp iz in my sis'z bedroom but no telephone wall port thingy so had to use my mom'z from the other room. Oopz! No telephone wire extension. Im like WAD THE.......! Called my mom and asked her where she put the extension wire but she forgot where she'd placed it. i called my bro to ask him to buy one but KNOCK!KNOCK! he'z already at the front door without hiz keyz. damn it..he gave me the Straitz Timez put his bag down and went out to play soccer. i haf to go out and but the extension wire myself. wad the hell? It cost $3.50!!! I mite as well buy myself food to indulge with!! Heck, i just buy...went back connect,connect,connect then ah...itz diallin... den JENG!JENG!JENG! ''No dial tone..Please make sure that you modem is connect correctly to your computer." I connect already WHAT!!!!! You want konek???? ARRGGGHH!!!! So irritatin...Fish off la! My father called again and asked me to try again so i did...then okay oredi...wah...so many installationz...trust my dad to ask me to do diz stuffz...
Then i had to do diz blog ya know...actualli i freakin care about blogz but i dun want to be left out in diz computer world ya know...i mite as well learn sumthin instead of being a total idiot and say,"Huh?" to a werd SPYWARE!!! wahahahaha! I didn't even know thatz a comp viruz when Jo told me dat her comp got infected by it..!! Geez, Su! Get a grip, girl! Dun blame me! I know human viruses! Human Immodeficency Viruz (HIV), Influenza Viruz (common flu), Small Pox Viruz, Polio Viruz, Hand,Foot and Mouth Viruz, Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome (SARS) Viruz, Hendra-like Viruz or Viral Hemorrhagic Viruz! All that! You know viruz!! Viruz wif genetic material in it! Viruz which use animal host CELLZ to replicate and infect!! THAT VIRUZ! I know all those viruz...Do you? My friendz r gonna laugh at me,man!
Anyway, my blog iz a bit different from otherz...i dun usually type in my entriez like an internet diary. Trust me u dun even wanna read wad i wrote about ppl on the net. im being a lil' bit sensitive to your feelingz people *APPLAUSE* i broadcast my feelingz inside and get diz itz in rhyme (term to describe lyrical emotionz). You know like a song or lyricz or whatever you want to call it but remember diz: IT'S NOT A POEM! Poemz are boring. sorry fana i knoe you're a poet but to be frank wif u (like i alwayz do wif u) I can sleep doing boring poemz...i haf to embarrasingly admit that i was once a poet. i wrote poemz in primary school and i won poem writin' competition before...Eww...i was like so freakin nerdily boring, i think. ME? Write POEMZ! funny...to moi...my sister take French clazz and i wanted to take MAndarin claz coz i want to learn Chinese den i can talk and understand chinese wif all my dearie chinese frenz but then i haf to wait until my sis'z french claz finishez den i'll go to the claz with her...wonder when...
anyway, my sort-of 'diary daily entry (DDE)' will be in red while my lyrical entriez would be in white...so you guyz will knoe the diff...
i hope you like my lyrical entriez...
itz been up to imprezz
for yourz truly in distrezz
feelingz suppressed not deprezz
let me take a hike and rest...
PEACE!