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If U Havent Made These Mistakes....
If U Havent Made These Mistakes, then learn from me. It only saves you the trouble or saves you from hurting your own feelings..i rather hurt myself than see other people hurt with the same mistake i made..It's mostly about having the right friends..anyhow, I am born an unlucky child. I had always have to figure things out on my own to be better coz nobody could help me.
One incident which kept me well-thinking: A friend had a problem with his girlfriend and the gf happened to be my god-sister and she's quite close to me. She trusted me alot and would always heed for my advice when she's in demoralization. So this friend had a problem with the realtionship with my god-sis and believe me it was in the middle of my 'O' levels. He dragged me out of my house and away from my books. I could not bear to say 'No' to this requited friend so I went. Listen to this: One BIG aberrational move. i did not study for one whole bloody day because i had to listen to his goddamn story. All the while i thought about better things to do than to listen to his story but what did i do? I went along with it..How consumately stupid can I get?I could just competently say 'NO' but this word seemes to be a very easy word but why is it so hard to say it out? I listened to him talk to God knows how long about one particular word which i despise: Relationship. He talked to me about the relationship going all screwed up and wanted me to save it..i mean come on! if the girl doesnt like YOU, you better give it up,man..! Whatever shit they have gone through is none of my bloody bznez but why am I dragged into it? Why should i be involved in this shit? why, for all things did i care to be there for a friend when nobody had ever been there for me before in my life? After that, this friend vanished! Gone with the wind..what do i have to deserve what i just did to him by just being there for him? Excuze me, SIR!, no thank yous??? Do i even need to ask?? people always come to me when they need me to be there for them, when they need advice, when they need a listening ear or when they need me to consolidate them. I do always listen to them but guess what? I hate listening! I am a good listener but SO WHAT? I still hate to listen! Im sick and tired of people thinking about me as a charity case..when i need their help, they were gone in a jiffy..
People say if you go somewhere peaceful and quiet, it helps to do some soul-searching. Like where? I will ask. The Beach on the water-breaker overlookin the composed sea..Feel the salty breeze kissin ur cheeks and the light sunshine beatin your back as u sit back and relax then start reflectin..OH GIVE ME A BREAK! I rather jump down into the sea and drown myself to rot than spare any hebetudinous thoughts of mine!it's a cruel thing to do...
Somebody told me that i cant live without friends. He's right. Apart from needin their help in emergencies, I can live on my own thank you very much. Anyway, what help is there when all your friends always makes excuses about being busy when I need their help? I might not need them at all..Hey! i can die of sudden death and my body is left to rot in a room for 21 days before the stench seeped from under the door of my home and prick the hair of your nostrils before i was found, my body half-way decomposin..i dont need anyone's help to be found! The stench from my own body could do all the work..what i mean is friends are not everything..Friends can be the most wonderful thing that happen in your life but its just in the matter of choosing the right one..
I used to have this friend whom i always confide in when i had my own problems..i mean im only human rite? I do need some incoming advices for myself right? But this guy he adviced me to be someone im not and its so wrong, so very wrong..At first, I just nodded my head, amazed, but i finally come to my senses and wasnt naive enough not to follow his stupid advice! I mean come on! my advices are way better than his, right Fas? hahaha! Maybe I used to respect him alot thats why i listened to him. How could i be so stupid to even listen to him? I was also thinkin about lettin him rip open my 'O' level result in his honour! What a terrible thought! I rather ask my brother to open it for me. Shit, I could bloody well open it up MYSELF!! Worse comes to worse, I even put on a blind eye when Im the one there for him, helping him in any way I could just to make him happy? Why?
I have read in magazines saying having friends will increase your lifeline or what they say makes you live longer? I say friends shortens my life and become the death of me! I swear they are squeezin the hell out of me and the life out of my soul..Yes,yes..I know i should look on the bright side and be positive but i could not possibly be thinking about a positive perspective all the time, right?Oy! ever heard of this clinche sentence before,"A ship as big as Titanic will eventually sink but one ship that will forever stay afloat is friend-ship," Ready to laugh? One, Two, THREE!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA! I rather abroad on a Titanic while it sinks and sing, 'My Heart Will Go On,' than be on a stupid friend-Ship.
Maybe friend problems are not the obstacles of life..thats too general,aint it? I think they are the obstacle life to my own grave! Hehe! I rather dig my own grave there and then, than run an obstacle to hell! Peace everyone!
~Hey Fas, hope you read all these..I hope Im the friend worth for you..Love ya, sis! And Jo, you too,sis..And Johan, hey, you're the best will always be loved by me..Bro Hao!! Even tho' I hate listenin, listening 2 ur probs are always a blessing in disguise..i wud love to help you in everyway possible! Love you too!~
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