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the prob wif me,outin mif sabby,suicidal ting-ting and my bestfren JO
i dunnoe wad e hell is happenin to me coz my mind's all jammed block..i keep forgettin simple things like where my one and only bestfren werks..SHE WERKS AT SOME ART FACTORY IN CLARKE QUAY GODDAMMIT SUE! WHY ARE YOU SO STOOPID! shit..i forgot dat Jonathan arrived Singapore like 2 days ago and i onli found out like fuck it 2 days later..im two days late..Jon was really mad at me not to care..FUCK!!i forgot dat im suppose to b at the orientation meetin yesterday and i had to test the AVA coz i was selected to b the music DJ for next week's orientation..i forgot to e-mail Micheal the lists of songs im suppose to air next week..and need his damn approval..i tink i juz air the songs that has all the fucks and bitches and whores..fuck man..i forgot everything..there's one thing i would always remember but i would wanna choose to forget..shit.why?the things i want to remember is forgotten and the things i want to forget is so picturesque, so brilliant so vivid in my mind?went out wif a really good fren 2 days ago..didnt meet her for at least from the day i received my 'O' levels result..wen was that? a year ago? shit miss her alot man..treat her to a yoghurt ice-cream wich is act not an ice-cream but its a yoghurt argh fuck it taste like yoghurt but its not really a yoghurt..watever..treat her to a Pastamania meal..treat her to a salty chicken wings and a margaritta..who noes i dun feel like drinkin..shit..it's 1 For 1..should douse myself with vodka or teq shots..Raff wasnt werkin early..though we waited for him like for an hour plus..im so sorry Sab..for makin u wait..thanks for everyting you hot thing..For the 2nd time in my life i juz feel like killin myself u noe.the 1st time i tink suicidal was the fact that i feel like crap in my life..my 1st time i feel like jumpin off my bedroom window..now i feel like just puncturing my heart wif a kitchen knife..i feel so unwanted..juz a piece of waste ppl make use to fill the hole in their life..Jo,i love you too.thanks for being the most understanding crazy fren i ever had..u made me change my mind abt girls coz wen we met i really hate girls..rmbr? hehe! i dunno how much i've expressed to u of how i cherish the times we had, apprize the times when u heal the big wound in my heart,and how much i venerate you as my sis.i love you,babe.u're the bomb.tho' sometimes i was always kept in the dark i still love u.one ting that i find it hard to forgive but things have been enlightened and i long have bear no malice against you and the sacrifice you made has blatantly forgotten,i cant forget the sacrifice u made to ditch me becoz of one guy is juz hard to believe.and i still love you.i realize dat these things haf to occur to let our friendship grow stronger.and i hope you realize that..THAT IS ONE HELL OF A SACRIFICE YOU MADE FOR JUST ONE GUY??? hehehehe! hahaha! muahahahaha!kiakiakiakiakiak! kahkahkahkahkah!muakakakakaka! (okay the last few laughs were actually invented by the psst..phamily) Love you loads jo! and im sorry i keep backing out wif our plans juz becoz im werkin..im kickin myself in the ass all the time i do dat..im very sorrie..i'll make it up to u babe..
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