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Trust Is A Lie
so the title says...all i want from u is to b honest.n nothin else.u might not wanna tell me ur problems.or whether u broke up wif ur boyfren.or haf u found a new boyfren.or that u're just sick of me at ur sight.watever.i dun give a fuck anymore.all i want.is for u to be fuckin' honest wif me.i haf nvr been unfair to u.i would in evry power i haf to make u happy.why cant u see dat?
evrytime i hear somethin new frm other ppl's mouth abt u breakin' up wif ur current boyfren,i juz haf to smile n snort.thinkin,"oh hey, i've always been left out.so wad the fuck?" u broke up wif ur exes,i've nvr been the first to noe.u had a new one.i either guessed it right or i got it frm someone else.tellin' me isnt necessary.yeah.dats cool.u noe im juz wonderin wad u took me for?oh yea.i told u before umm...wad did i ask u? "nvr to do dat again" u rmbr? oh u dont? mayb u do.so the plead fall on deaf ears.great. i can handle that.im a bitch.who posses no feelings?so wad im insensitive.indirectly u are too.to me.u can ditch me n juz leave me in the dark again.and again.and again.and again.and again.im fine wif it.at first.but after a while, it rubbed me in.i've started to ponder if its me who is the problem.my heart is solidifyin.
u see.its not abt how many boyfrens u ditched to cling to a newer guy.its not abt u tellin me evry little things.i dun need dat.for u to LIE to me is the worst thing i ever expected frm u.i am not a guy.i am not ur boyfren.i am not a stalker.well excuse me.if u dun wanna go somewhere wif me u juz haf to fuckin' hell tell me,fucker. dammit.u wanna go somewhere u've planned wif some other ppl.im fine wif it! i dun care.i would understand.fuck it.LYING TO ME IS JUST SO NOT A GOOD IDEA.u wanna noe why? u're a terrible liar.u're gettin better at it but u still suck at lying.let me tell u diz: Liars need to werk on the things they've said. who am i to u is the question u need to ask urself.the question i haf asked myself many times before.i knoe who i tink u are to me and i hope it will stay that way.
ok.u called for someonelse for help.u went to ur ex-boyfren to cry ur eyes out.u look for other ppl wen u haf the problem.so im juz...uh..who again to u?i cant get diz right.really.u went out wif a person u nvr told me abt.like meet him more frequent than me or ur boyfren.who is diz guy?seriously.im not jealous.the clinche honesty is the best policy DO APPLY to the both of us.it bothers me so much dat u nvr been really honest wif me.u dun trust me.so u lied to me.im not being difficult.or overzealous.but let me be honest wif u.i hate being treated like an xtra fren to u only to be labelled as........................
hey,i still love u.n i noe u care for me.i do too.but there's nvr a reason y i shud.u haf alot of frens.who cared for u.alot.but u dun noe i cared for u.to the extent that nobody would b able to reach.not even ur boyfren.
u dun noe how much i wanted to b invisible than i already am.
im givin up.
i love you.
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