patience to enlightenment
oh yeah we did a very long talk im still not so sure however if we will be thoroughly solid becoz this sunday is going to be one hell of a waiting day the day i dont wanna know the outcomes i hate to leave and leaving with a thinking that he might be taken away is so unacceptable to let go i can take it now without anyone else involve but i cant embrace it if these people come up with something that i cant accept... how to? is this the fate of my life? can someone be forced to do things they dont wanna do? can anyone get the things they want really badly? why cant i be that someone who could preserve the whole that i love?? things used to turn out the way i actually wanted it to be they way i've been asking for so long so so long and when i got it, little did i know how im about to lose my grip i hate thinking about the future i dont want to wait for the future future will suck a whole lot ... anyway, been wanting to do a double date with sabby and izhar i think ar sab go for the fireman la and NOOOO its not because we're both dating men in the same uniform please... becoz i think rite matboy he's not really a truthful person as it seems he can just disappear whenever he wants to and cook up some ass shit excuses so you'll believe him he's done it once trust me, he'll do it again and throw you into the WHAT-HAVE-I-DONE-question there's seriously nothing wrong with you and your looks its just them dont jeopardise yourself,girl im not saying stay the hell away from him i just want you to be hell well cautious of bastards ORAIT?!!! you know i'll always be there for you im just a phonecall away love ya loads loads loads!! ... hmm...something to deliberate i havent been myself lately for the 2 weeks i was werking and schooling both full-time i was exhausted i have ALOT in my mind i didnt talk much i wasnt the laser-mouth sue i wasnt the sarcastic bitch i wasnt wad others think im suppose to be i am now the very conservative and quiet little girl hehe i keep to myself most of the time ALL THE TIME heh! Dali and Wan will be damned to see me so damn quiet! but they're both in NS now! too bad... i think joing the SPDJ would bring my wild side up on the surface well... during the interview, i felt so welcome and so comfortable I HOPE I GOT A PLACE and lose $200 haha... hmmm....
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