i just have to blog this
i got this from an AM member
hahahahahaha
kahkahakahakahakaha
wakakakakakakakak
it just made my day la

Itu arr aku nak citer sket nie, tuesday pagi pagi begini aku terasa macam nak type nonsense sket. Hari tu si Dolah tengah main main kat luar, tau tau kawan dia maki dia Buto, dia pon balik tanya mak dia, Mak Mak Buto tu apa, Mak dia tak nak cakap apa, so mak dia pon kata Buto tu kira datok ko lah. Esok nya kawan dia maki dia Sial, dia pon tanya mak dia lagi, mak dia kata ooo Sial tu kira buah-buahan lah. Esoknya lagi kawan dia maki dia Puki, dia tanya mak dia lagi, mak dia segan, lalu kata ooo Puki tu kira pakaian lah. Pastu Dolah pon main main kat luar rumah, dia nampak datuk dia datang jengok, plak tu atok dia ada pegang buah buahan. Dia pon teriak Yeh Yeh Buto Datang Bawak Sial. Atok dia pon mengamok lah, kuang ajiaqnya anak, sapa ajar ko begini, Mana Mak ko? Dolah pon menjawab, MAK KAT BILIK AIR CUCI PUKI, (Mak dia tengah basuh kain)

Muahahahahah.
Trip sakzz otak.

so not trying to be mushy or whatsoever
i got this from somewhere
and
i think it hit the right spot for the 'GUYS DONT GET IT'
hehe..
enjoy reading!

If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not TOYED around. Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever. Don't substitute her for anyone else, they are just unique in their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treasure her. She could have just got up & dated so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead of all the others because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.

Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her. Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be.

Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.

Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same. Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.

Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done. Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.

This is just part 1..got part 2 & 3
maybe will post the other parts next time

ha!

im shaking
when im typing this
i cant help letting my eyes bleed with grief
i thought i could be strong for myself
the fact is...im a little overwhelm of what has happened
i hate being mean to people
and i dun want to be mean
im a very forgivable person
even to assholes
there are certain things that i could supress my ego into the minimum
i dun wan to be forgivable
for once, i would like to be selfish for myself
but
in nature..i just cant..
im always very vulnerable to being hurt
all the time
well...
before all these happen
i actually set aside a few hours of my time to design a t-shirt for you



4 straight hours to do this
i still believe in the "Things happen for a reason," kind of stuffs
so
while i deserve someone WAY better
my design deserve an owner WAY better too
WITH A PRICE
yes, im going to sell this design instead
...
the month of July
is going to be a busy month for me
which is good
i should do more designs and keep myself busy
coming up with designs are therepeutic
though im on anti-depressants
and on weekly therapy sessions
i should be able to keep myself on my two feet
the counsellor told me
to just do the things im best at
and
use my 24hours as much as I can
and not sit around feeling sorry for myself
if im doing well,
i dont have to see her again
and
not depend on anti-depressant pills anymore
i hate to think that im crazy
maybe your daily callings, "Giler!" really make me go crazy for real
thanks ar..
oh well...wad to do..??
i've indulged in swimming and running
im part of a designer team for SPUNK magazine
i should find pleasure in doing my assignments
i should
and
i should not think that ending my life would be a choice
my appetite is terrible...i dont eat as much either..
that will take some time though
hmm...
3 July: Appointment
6 July: CRS Project Presentation 1
7 July: Fadli's birthday
8 July: Lindah's Wedding Day
10 July: Appointment
12 July : SPUNK Magazine Launch Party at St. James Powerhouse
13 July: CRS Project Presentation 2
14 July : Flea Market @ *Scape
17 July: Hopefully the last appointment
...
lets face facts: You Ruin Me.
this is how much damage ONE person could make me
im in pieces
and
im never going to forgive what you did to me
and neither will my Dad
he's an angry person now
there is so much a person could take
...
time to take my pills now
and
go for another long,loooooong run

im definitely moving on..
im definitely going out and enjoying myself
definitely
hee
at least...
i still haf sab
when can i meet her again??
hmm...
im still quite pissed about the previous entry
that i wrote after Jon exclaimed in full confidence, "But I'm your bestfren!"
im like, "Pfft...Fuck shit!"
whatever la Jon, the whole last entry was for you
ha! bitch...
...
anyway..
meeting him was brief la
didnt expect wad to be expected
but definitely a laugh
and
I
AM
SO
SHY
.
.
.
ah shit...
forget it
bye

sometimes..
people say that they'll be there for you
when actually...
they're not
they're just saying it so as to give you assurance
that you haf the assumption that that particular party
is the best fren u ever had
i got news for you...
until this person gives you a call when u are particularly down right at that moment
and soothes you to calmness,
then dats the best fren u ever had
otherwise..they're just words
words that doesnt meant anything
words that like an empty box
dont believe it..
heck..
the very moment i even think about telling you my problem
i should slap myself in the face and step back
coz
telling you is the most regretful thing i ever would haf divulged
the fact is...
you dont even cared
the fact is...
all you ever care is to find your _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
i would never depend on you on whatsoever
because you'll always leave me to tend on my own
...
i know i will never be left alone
theres always someone to pick me up in the end
for one
Fifie will always be there to give me a call every once a while
updating me on what is happening with him
or
asking me how am i doing
DESPITE
his busy life to be a good and filial son
he's been accepted as an SIA Engineer
i've never been more than happy for him
and i am going to his graduation party
to celebrate his achievements wif his mom
and
when Yan totally ruin my ideal momentum of happiness,
Fifie asked me, "What do you want to do?"
and i actually said, "I want to drive a knife to his heart and twist the knife over and over and over again.."
and Fifie laughed making me look like a total fool
at that point i just wanna smack him
"What I meant is what do you want to do...Definitely you want to do something fun for a change since you're free now.."
Heh..im so belo...yeah i suggested we went Johor for supper
and yeah
its been a loooooong time since we had fun
since i got hooked
by an asshole
the asshole who hates me going out wif fifie
ANYWAY,
HE is an example of the best fren you ever had
rite??
for the other, Maria
she's the one person i will never regret spilling my guts to
i tell her everything
you hear me asshole? EVERYTHING
everything about you too
every little thing you conceive of in another say...a month or so??
wad the hell..
fuck another bitch asshole
who knows wad might come up in nine months..
oh ya..back to Maria...
she knows everything that happen in my life
dats probably because she care
she care to pick up her phone, dial my number and ask me if im ok
she's the perfect fren
and i care about her alot too
i know her vulnerability is always been her shadow
she has been thru alot and it pains to hear her stories
i never imagine myself goin thru wad she has been thru
she's a strong woman
and therefore i need her
other than that
my
family
will
always
be
there
for
me
...
and thanks guys for wishing me happy birthday
esp. Dali: thanks for remembering...you're the first among all to wish me though sometimes you make me really mad with your constant verbiage, i really appreciate your priority to be there for me..oh well..after your girlfriend now that you haf one..heeeee..good luck man!
PEACE

i dont know what to do now
i just want to think
i think
and
think
and think
and
think
i might as well just shoot myself in the head
or hang myself in my room
hehe
nah..
these images actually goes thru my head
and i like it virtually
because someone
just made a shithead out of me
i dun need you
i dun anyone to treat me like piss to tell me
indirectly
that im not good enough
im never am good enough
neither is anyone
especially not you
man..you're a coward
you dodge when im around
its not like i want to care
im not stupid
u fucking coward
ha!
growing animosity has taken over me
i really hate you..
you're not really appreciative arent you
i accepted your dirty past
i accepted your social life
i accepted your shitness and your flaws
i accepted YOUR STUPID MISTAKE
i knew you were lying to me but i forgave you
you took advantage of my kindness
and you try to step over my head
since you cant do that,
you left me hanging
you thik i could be affected by that??
you think disappearing is going to make me bawl out my eyes, fall on my knees and ask you to come back to me again..
oh fuck..no way am i going to be that stupid again
it was a mistake..
and when you open your eyes tomorrow and the first thing that comes to your mind is to have the courage to give me a call
think about this bitch,
expect something more from me than a, "Mmmm..." in my conversation
im through
and
im done
i know wad an asshole and a coward you are
you are not wad you convinced me to be
you are as good as a fucking liar
right from the start
i have never meant this before
but now,
a matrep will always be a matrep
i will not forgive myself for believing in matreps like you
shitness...
...
im going for a loooong run now
hopefully,
im able
to
think and feel better
after the run..

Labels: go for a run

my gosh...
wad an asshole
wad a fucking bastard
wad did i do??
whatever it is
i am not gonna let you get in my way
i got school to tink abt
thinking about u doesnt always make me happy
most of the time i'd be thinking
of how long this happiness is going to last
i have always been insecure
becoz i knew
diz will come again
and
you will hurt me time and time again
i should haf listened to Ida
i knew all along how right she is
but
i took a gamble
risk being hurt again
trying to believe
that maybe this time
you will make this right
and im so wrong
i keep telling myself
i dont deserve someone like you
honestly,
im a good person
i gave you so many chances
i hate myself for doing this to myself
for being so fucking stupid
each time believing you will not do this to me again
even though i ignored my insecurities
this is the last straw
i wanted to be strong
and thats what i will be
this is going to be over for me now
its time for me to do myself a favour
and stop being stupid
i cant have myself vulnerable to being hurt
again and again
i can live without you
i have always been independent
with or without you
i am never going to wait for you ever again
i've spared myself too much hope
i wont live long
so i wont spend the rest of my life giving chance to bastards like you
i rather spend it
knowing what a fucking asshole you are
so here's another finger for you



...
school has been tiring
the late nights are nothing compared to working in night life
at least i knew i work my ass off
for something better
and for my future
rather than i spend my nights at work
thinking
what the hell im doing with my life
now i can think about
what i will do with my life
im back to school now (and i made it without you)
it has been 2 months or so?
yeah maybe
and by this time we know who to group with and who NOT to group with
all i know is
I JUST WANT TO WORK ALONE
i work better that way anyway
i give quality work
and doing it alone give me the satisfaction of my own hard work
i hate group projects
...
ouhkay i tink i will go to sleep now
will be meeting sab for a Sentosa trip
to just chill out
just the 2 of us
it has always been great being with you, Sabby
...
OH!OH!
i was doing my work in school at one of the study benches the other day
and this guy approached me
and say that his friend wants to get to know me
i looked over to his friend (ouuuhkaay..his friend=pretty boy=definite cutie)
they were there all along i was there actually
i just naturally never notice people
i smiled and politely shook my head
(at that time i didnt know i was just being a stupid loyal bitch to an asshole)
"Huh? Why?" The friend asked, surprised that i just rejected his pretty friend then it came to him that i might be attached and then he went,"OH oook!So..wads your name?"
"Sue." the only thing i said throughout the whole conversation
then he walked back to his friend
straight away,i packed my laptop and my stuffs
and went home
earlier than expected
haha! i cant stand being in front of him after that..
a few days later,i bumped into that pretty boy
in
the
LRT
I felt like U-turning and wait for the next train
but it will seem obvious
i smiled back when he smiled shyly at me
but other than that, I deliberately be oblivious to my surrounding and him
malu sey
i bumped into him a few times after that
both in school and in the MRT or LRT
aku buat tak nampak aje...
haha...sorry pretty boy, i stop believing in sporty handsome guys a long time ago
though sporty guys are difficult to resist
i had enough of assholes actually
dunno wad he saw in me
i am this plain girl with the huge red frame specs
this is me in cartoon drawn with illustrator




...
anyway,Sab tagged me
so here goes...


Layer 1: On the Outside
name: suhaily salleh
birth date: ...
current status: im hanging
eye color: dark brown
hair color: reddish-brown
righty or lefty: right

Layer 2: On the Inside My Heritage:
my fears: i shant say..HOHO!
my weaknesses: im too nice to people
my perfect pizza: traditional round-base pizza, bbq chicken, green bell pepper, bbq sauce, chicken floss and lotsa mozarella

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
my thoughts first waking up: bath!
my bedtime: dunno..it varies
my most missed memory: my beloved grandma

Layer 4: My Pick
pepsi or coke: i grew out of the both of them..but i will choose coke
mcdonalds or burger king: burger king please!
single or group dates: single...quality time=some time alone (hee!)
adidas or nike: adidas of course! wad the hell...
tea or nestea: wads the difference?
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
cappuccino or coffee: they're both coffee..wad kind of choice is this??

Layer 5: Do you…
smoke: not anymore
curse: surprisingly minimal now
take a shower: duh..im a cleanliness freak
have a crush: yes of course
think you’ve been in love: define love. i dunno love.
go to school: yes...
believe in yourself: always
think you’re a health freak: ironically, im going to start my healthy regime tomorrow..hehe

Layer 6: In the past
drank alcohol: uh huh..and proudly, i quit
gone to the mall: who hasnt?
been on stage: been on stage and perform or just stand on stage..? hehe yes to both
eaten sushi: yes...but cant eat much variations..allergic to seafood
dyed your hair: never..contemplating whether i shoudld..should i?? :(

Layer 7: Have you ever…
played a stripping game: ahahaha! yes! with the guys but i was never the one who stripped..prolly because there were too many ppl playing..it was a scary game..never risk my dignity every again

Layer 8: Age you’re hoping…
to be married: yes..and the guy i wish to be married with turns out to be an asshole

Layer 9: In a guy
best eye color: doesnt matter
best hair color: natural hair colour

Layer 10: What were you doing…
a minute ago: blogging
1 hour ago: slepping
4.5 hours ago: was in lala land zzzz
1 month ago: exactly a month ago, i think i was slugging for my assignment
1 year ago: doing nothing with my life

Layer 11: Finish the sentences…
i love: myself! hehe
i feel: like shit actually
I hate: promises
I hide: my real self from other people
I miss: my grandma alot..the only person who makes me complete..but she's gone..now im incomplete
I need: some money to buy an external hard disk, a tablet and to disappear

Layer 12: Tag 5 people…
(01) mustaqimo
(02) my classmates
(03) anyone
(04) refer to (03)
(05) refer to (04)

Labels: assholes