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sometimes.. people say that they'll be there for you when actually... they're not they're just saying it so as to give you assurance that you haf the assumption that that particular party is the best fren u ever had i got news for you... until this person gives you a call when u are particularly down right at that moment and soothes you to calmness, then dats the best fren u ever had otherwise..they're just words words that doesnt meant anything words that like an empty box dont believe it.. heck.. the very moment i even think about telling you my problem i should slap myself in the face and step back coz telling you is the most regretful thing i ever would haf divulged the fact is... you dont even cared the fact is... all you ever care is to find your _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. i would never depend on you on whatsoever because you'll always leave me to tend on my own ... i know i will never be left alone theres always someone to pick me up in the end for one Fifie will always be there to give me a call every once a while updating me on what is happening with him or asking me how am i doing DESPITE his busy life to be a good and filial son he's been accepted as an SIA Engineer i've never been more than happy for him and i am going to his graduation party to celebrate his achievements wif his mom and when Yan totally ruin my ideal momentum of happiness, Fifie asked me, "What do you want to do?" and i actually said, "I want to drive a knife to his heart and twist the knife over and over and over again.." and Fifie laughed making me look like a total fool at that point i just wanna smack him "What I meant is what do you want to do...Definitely you want to do something fun for a change since you're free now.." Heh..im so belo...yeah i suggested we went Johor for supper and yeah its been a loooooong time since we had fun since i got hooked by an asshole the asshole who hates me going out wif fifie ANYWAY, HE is an example of the best fren you ever had rite?? for the other, Maria she's the one person i will never regret spilling my guts to i tell her everything you hear me asshole? EVERYTHING everything about you too every little thing you conceive of in another say...a month or so?? wad the hell.. fuck another bitch asshole who knows wad might come up in nine months.. oh ya..back to Maria... she knows everything that happen in my life dats probably because she care she care to pick up her phone, dial my number and ask me if im ok she's the perfect fren and i care about her alot too i know her vulnerability is always been her shadow she has been thru alot and it pains to hear her stories i never imagine myself goin thru wad she has been thru she's a strong woman and therefore i need her other than that my family will always be there for me ... and thanks guys for wishing me happy birthday esp. Dali: thanks for remembering...you're the first among all to wish me though sometimes you make me really mad with your constant verbiage, i really appreciate your priority to be there for me..oh well..after your girlfriend now that you haf one..heeeee..good luck man! PEACE
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