disappointment
why?
why do you have to let him stab you in the back?
why do you have to let him stab you in the back?
i might be the one that have gone totally mental
i might be the one that have all those crazy panic attacks
i might be the one taking all those pills
i might be the one who have to in and out of the doctor's office
but i am one thing for sure that i am just so DETERMINE to get
TO GET OVER THAT SONOFABITCH
im progressing
im recovering
im taking one small step at a time
and
im getting there
you want to know why?
because I freaking WANT TO LET GO
its not what you HAVE to do
its a matter whether you WANT to or not
its your choice
if u really want to get on with your life
without that asshole,
i suggest you think what you have been doing
if you're telling me that you've tried
i dun see how hard
because damn hell you're not trying hard enough
you keep falling back
everytime you realise that he's not worth your love
you move on a little and when u start missing him,
you fall back to square one
i ask you, Hid..what is it that you want?
you keep U-turning
when are you advancing?
you let him win
i dun get it..why are you giving him more space to destroy you?
i know it's hard, Hid
no one says its going to be easy either
and you're making it harder for yourself
but for you to just give up, just....
i dont know...its pretty frustrating
i was so hoping that you know wad life means to you
im still am hoping
that you would open your eyes
and
look around you
you never knew how wide the world is
your world is narrow now Hid
now your world is all about that asshole
maybe you've seen how wide the world is
you just push reality away
hoping that the matrep will change
he's not going to change
you will have to
you have expected people who loves you to scream at you
and also be disappointed in you
and u let us be disappointed in you?
why?
why do you let people who genuinely loves you get disappointed?
why do you let people who genuinely loves you get their heart's broken?
why do you let that matrep, the person who destroys you, a chance?
why not give yourself a chance?
why not give us, people who care for you, some more space to love you even more?
why?
why?
why?
dont tell me you CANT do it
you can
its just that...you dont allow yourself to be able to do it
im going to be terribly sorry if you tell me, "Oh Suly...I've tried but I cant help it!"
oh for fuck's sake, Hid..nobody can help it
sheer determination has to be your bestfren now
ur family and frens..even me..this is as far as we can help you
to be there for you, to help you see, to advice you
thats all
and beyond that, its all you
...
dun let him win, Hid
im begging you
please dun let him win
i'll be at the sidelines..
cheering you on
with the same faith as everybody else
Faith in you
05:20
