remember, remember, the 5th of september
YES!
FINALLY!
I
FREAKING
GOT
A
NEW
HANDPHONE
WAKAKAKAKA!
the Xpress music phone Nokia 5300
though its kind of out-dated
tapi takpela
the long-awaited phone
hmm...
lalalalala
a present from my sister
for
a damn belated bday
and also
a gift for my recovery
...
i will be going for an appointment
this coming tuesday
hopefully
it'll be the last one
tired sia..
its shits to be depressed la
why
why
why
do i haf to go thru heartaches and pain??
so unfair :(
...
however,
my weekends are pretty packed
will be meeting a bestfren from primary school tomorrow
how exciting!
i cant wait to meet her though..!!
oh dat will be in the afternoon
after that,
haf to meet the gang for dinner
DEAREST DALI BDAY
wahlau..dun bring ur gf la bro
takle giler2 saks
bodoh
den...
sunday got class BABI-Q
kind of lazy to go
but haf to go
coz of the $6.50 spenditure
WEAK!
and oh ya
ASSIGNMENTS
ASSIGNMENTS
ASSIGNMENTS
how pack can my head be??
...
im kind of glad
that
im in this crazy-work-overload-course
which keep me super duper busy
and
also
im really happy
that i haf such great frens who help me
to bypass my misery
by keeping my weekends packed
so that
most of the time
i wont be thinking about u
as i always do
it takes time for me to make u a NON-EXISTENCE
i really hope
that I will never see your damn face again
i shall receive NO HEARTACHES this year
please
...
oh ya sab
i will always be here,there,everywhere,anywhere
whenever u need me
no matter how depressed
or
how crazy i am
meeting u
just blows my troubles away
...
my doktor giler asked me if i miss him
i said, "Always."
den she asked me if i keep thinking about him
i said, "I try not to but I do.All the time."
she asked me how have i been doing so far
i told her i haf successfully kept myself busy,happy and keep my head off him 80% of the time..and i told her thinking about him before i go to sleep is inevitable..it is a quiet time where my mind is clear and he just pops up..
she told me to engage myself in a book before i go to sleep
gradually
i will not think about him anymore
and stop missing him
and
IT
KIND-OF
WORK
...
when Saiful died,
i was terribly emotionally unstable
until now,
i have never visited his grave
not going there, keeps me going now
so
it keeps me going, if Yan just never reappear at my face
so please eh
keep ur distance
...
my ex-neighbour, Fifie,has been a dear
he was with me right from the start i fell 6 feet under
he sent me to doktor giler for EVERY SINGLE appointments
i feel kinda guilty
what will other people think of him,
sitting outside waiting for some maniac girl
to finish her appointment every week?
but he refused to listen to me
so..
yah..
hate to menyusahkan orang la
haiyaaak!!!
but the really good thing about him is..
HE NEVER SPOKE A SINGLE COMMENT ABOUT YAN
bcoz from the start
he respected Yan
A hell lot.
i dunno why..
however
he's not siding anybody
thats great abt him
...
i went for a visit to Fifie's house
to meet his mother
and
she cried when she sees me
i was surprised at that reaction
she loves me like her own daughter
i felt bad
i made alot of people cry
becoz of my fall
i hate tears
its so upsetting
THE NEXT PERSON WHO BAWLS AT MY FACE, WILL GET A REAL GOOD BITCH-SLAP/SMACK ACROSS HIS/HER FACE FROM ME
wakakakaaka
and
im not kidding
...
its funny
that my mom told me
dat if a guy wants to get to know me,
remember to ask for his age
wahahahaha
MY MOM IS SOOOO CUTE LA!
khekhehekhehkehe!
...
i miss my belo-ness
MUST RECOVER FAST!
Labels: road to recovery
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