shattered tears
i tried my darnest to erase u from myselfmy hardest
my all
and i realise there's a part in me who doesnt want to let go
i did my very best to release that tension
its like forcing open a clenched fist with a wrencher
its hard
its fucking hard
its her fault
she made me sit back, close my eyes and relax
she told me to imagine his face
den
she told me to imagine his face smiling
tears starts welling up but i held it back
she told me to imagine his face smiling and holding a baby
dats wen tears started to roll down my cheeks...hot tears
she saw but she continued
she told me to imagine his face smiling, holding a baby and a woman standing beside him
i couldnt take it
i just couldnt take it
im still very much in pain...and it hurts
my supposed last appointment
has changed
i still haf to go back there again
i wanted to be okay
i dun wan to be like this
but why when applying formulas to theory i just failed miserably?
i try to be strong for Hid, deep inside, im crumbling
when i hear how dat stoopid Ariffin just abandon Sab,
i remembered how Yan abandon me
exactly like that
when i read dat she cries at night
i turn in bed at night and cried for her too
why do we haf to face such treatment
its cruel
everytime i face sab,
i knew deeply how she feels inside
and my heart just bleeds
...
why?
why cant u just fucking face me and tell me the whole fucking truth
why Ariffin, why cant u face Sab and tell her wads wrong?
for u to just fuck it
why dont u just fuck it about telling straight to MY FACE
...
Fifie told me he miss the old Sue
i miss my old self too
i have to
bring myself back
...
im going to dread the next few appointments
why do i haf to go thru shit
for an asshole
i hate my life...
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