
yeap i turn my back to alot of things lately
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when i was about 14yrs old when Saiful died, i swore to myself something seemingly tragic and i still keep that little 'something'
no one except me and Allah knows what i swore myself to
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when my family starts falling to pieces
i told to myself that i will study real hard, get a good job, pull my parents out of misery and let them live in luxury..
the driving passion is still in me now
i swore to myself that i will never dissappoint them in any way
and i hate myself if that ever happens
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3 years ago, i stopped believing in promises
until now...
i snapped at anyone who tries to promise me anything
and I NEVER..yes NEVER promise anyone
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all my life,
i only trust one person
that one person passed a year ago
from then on, i never trusted anyone
im never ever going to believe in anyone anymore
i dont know who to trust eitherso to hell with that
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.
.
and
i think
i dont want to get married
i did my goal map
i dont even haf time for marriage
who the fuck cares about marriage anyways
i just want to travel around the world
fuck school
knowledge beyond the boundaries of school compounds and textbooks or even being stuck in your own country, are far more powerful than just some qualification papers
FUCK DIPLOMAS
FUCK DEGREES
FUCK PHDS
and
FUCK MATRIMONIES
i want to travel
and die travelling
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ah shucks!
the first week of my hols i've been busy doing my assignments
the 2nd week i've been out of the country
now is the 3rd week...i shouldnt be sitting on my ass all week
i need to do some shit ass-kicking design!!
time to work!
time to work!
BAAAAAHHHHH!!!!
haha..
whoever he's married to,
must be a really lucky gal
and
when that happens
im going to be reeeeallly jealous
hehe!
this time its for realthe last appointment is in Octoberwohoooo!!cant wait to be freeeeeeee againi haf my very own personal happy therapyand that is no other den Ms. SITI SABARIAH BINTE NORMANwhahahahahahahaeh amacam fadzullah u gay fuckaku pon letak full name sablu mau gadoh takwhakakkakakameeting her is like so the gerek la shitamacams sabby? mau meet lagik tak????next week!!we dont haf to watch rush hour 3 to dose ourselves with laughterhehe...oh btw, you are historythough u are really meani thank you for being such an assholei haf nvr trusted anyone in my lifeand thanks for confirming my instincti could never be more wrongcoz I AM SO DARN RIGHTha!this song is so for you
i had a lunch date with him
and
a cuddle treat with his super life size teddy bear
sigh...
im so in love with him...
hmmm...
hehehhehe
wakhakhakhakhaaaa..
oops..
sorry!
haiz.....................................~!@#$$T&^%*(&)