2 fuckin' weeks
for 2 weeks
i've only had a maximum of 3 hours of sleep
for 2 weeks
i have been staying until 11pm in school
go home only to continue what I've left off
for 2 weeks
i've been rushing to finish up assignments
assignments after assignments after assignments
the end of the last day of that 2 weeks
a wave of relief washed over me
school semester is over
ALL assignments are DONE (including CC mind you! heh! oh my classmates are gonna hate me!)
when one took only 5 minutes to reach home from the MRT
it took me 15 minutes to end my destination
for the first time in 2 weeks,
i fulfilled my full 9 hours of sleep
goals + sleep deprivation = formidable results
i am especially proud of myself
...
so
.
.
.
KARMA has hit me through and through huh
WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME
that guys chickened out
turned into an ultimate assholes
AND
not be MAN enough to face me?
fuckin' cowards
...
Yana is a month pregnant
ILA LET'S KIDNAP HER KID IN APRIL SHALL WE?
muahahahaha *evil laughter*
...
ok i've been tagged
i know i said i wont do it
i tink i heard her cry in the toilet
because suhaily doesnt do that stupid tag game
i will do it just for you
but i wont tag no one ya
ok fuck, here goes
1. The person who last tag you is:
Nurilawati Anak Ismail Bin Mas'od
2. Your relationship with him or her:
cousin
3. Your five impression of him or her:
kudut
slenge
smiley
belo
whiny
soft/lembik
eh more than 5 oredi la doink!
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
our 'PROJECT'. when we were small. oh we did alot of things very memorable together when we were kids huh.
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:
"Suly! You are the best!" I swear she said that.
6. If he/she would become your lover, you will:
make her eat.
7. If he/she would become your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on would be:
weight management.she got eating disorder. thats why she so the kudut.
8. If he/she would become your enemy, you will:
kidnap her kids.
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be:
she's too kering and kudut.
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her right now is:
do this stupid thing so she will stop crying in the toilet every now and then. irritation sia.
11. Your overall impression of him/her:
likes to laugh.ALOT.
12. How you think people around you would feel about you?
FIERCE.haha.and sometimes belo.oh well most of the time actually.
13. The characters you love of yourself are:
everything.im one hell of a very self-centered person.i love everything about myself.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate about yourself are:
generosity.i want to be selfish sometimes but im just too kind.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
the GREAT SUHAILY. im proud of who i am so i wont want to be someone im not.
16. For people that cares and likes you, say something to them:
HERE'S A BIG FUCK YOU TO ALL OF YOU.THANK YOU!
i've only had a maximum of 3 hours of sleep
for 2 weeks
i have been staying until 11pm in school
go home only to continue what I've left off
for 2 weeks
i've been rushing to finish up assignments
assignments after assignments after assignments
the end of the last day of that 2 weeks
a wave of relief washed over me
school semester is over
ALL assignments are DONE (including CC mind you! heh! oh my classmates are gonna hate me!)
when one took only 5 minutes to reach home from the MRT
it took me 15 minutes to end my destination
for the first time in 2 weeks,
i fulfilled my full 9 hours of sleep
goals + sleep deprivation = formidable results
i am especially proud of myself
...
so
.
.
.
KARMA has hit me through and through huh
WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME
that guys chickened out
turned into an ultimate assholes
AND
not be MAN enough to face me?
fuckin' cowards
...
Yana is a month pregnant
ILA LET'S KIDNAP HER KID IN APRIL SHALL WE?
muahahahaha *evil laughter*
...
ok i've been tagged
i know i said i wont do it
i tink i heard her cry in the toilet
because suhaily doesnt do that stupid tag game
i will do it just for you
but i wont tag no one ya
ok fuck, here goes
1. The person who last tag you is:
Nurilawati Anak Ismail Bin Mas'od
2. Your relationship with him or her:
cousin
3. Your five impression of him or her:
kudut
slenge
smiley
belo
whiny
soft/lembik
eh more than 5 oredi la doink!
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
our 'PROJECT'. when we were small. oh we did alot of things very memorable together when we were kids huh.
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:
"Suly! You are the best!" I swear she said that.
6. If he/she would become your lover, you will:
make her eat.
7. If he/she would become your lover, the thing he/she has to improve on would be:
weight management.she got eating disorder. thats why she so the kudut.
8. If he/she would become your enemy, you will:
kidnap her kids.
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be:
she's too kering and kudut.
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her right now is:
do this stupid thing so she will stop crying in the toilet every now and then. irritation sia.
11. Your overall impression of him/her:
likes to laugh.ALOT.
12. How you think people around you would feel about you?
FIERCE.haha.and sometimes belo.oh well most of the time actually.
13. The characters you love of yourself are:
everything.im one hell of a very self-centered person.i love everything about myself.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate about yourself are:
generosity.i want to be selfish sometimes but im just too kind.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
the GREAT SUHAILY. im proud of who i am so i wont want to be someone im not.
16. For people that cares and likes you, say something to them:
HERE'S A BIG FUCK YOU TO ALL OF YOU.THANK YOU!
02:01
my gut just turned right back in
he finally uploaded his pic on facebook
havent seen him for the longest time
my ex-boyfriend's a model now
one of those times where you stop and think back
"What happened?"
then
AH!
it hit me.
hit me HARD
damn i dumped the guy
without mercy
slaughtered his heart right through and through
smack him right in the face
throw him hard against the wall
squeeze the life out of his sweet sweet heart
and turned his saccharine personality into a cursing fit
vulgarities thrown at me
hatred
disappointment
disgust
immense angst
.
.
.
even so
it catalyzed no reaction in me
no wait
guess wad my first reaction was?
laughter.
i fucking laughed at your absolute abhorrence
what the fuck am i?
i had a stone cold heart man
wad the bloody hell was i made of?
wad a bitch
im a bitch
a fucking heartless bitch
...
i had my regrets
this is the biggest
but i never feared mistakes i made
i could never tell how low i stooped
until i turned back and visited the past
how cruel i had been
...
truth is
laughter is a reflex response to fear
i was a
vicious, treacherous little witch
...
i could feel the utmost disappointment when people starts reading this post
...
with the deepest regrets
i bow my head so low
and
i compunctiously say,
"I deserve all the fucks you gave me while i was that smiling evil little bitch,"
i didnt know
i swear
im truly and deeply sorry
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
oh and btw, johan and i are still keeping in touch
he's too good a person to let go just like that
havent seen him for the longest time
my ex-boyfriend's a model nowone of those times where you stop and think back
"What happened?"
then
AH!
it hit me.
hit me HARD
damn i dumped the guy
without mercy
slaughtered his heart right through and through
smack him right in the face
throw him hard against the wall
squeeze the life out of his sweet sweet heart
and turned his saccharine personality into a cursing fit
vulgarities thrown at me
hatred
disappointment
disgust
immense angst
.
.
.
even so
it catalyzed no reaction in me
no wait
guess wad my first reaction was?
laughter.
i fucking laughed at your absolute abhorrence
what the fuck am i?
i had a stone cold heart man
wad the bloody hell was i made of?
wad a bitch
im a bitch
a fucking heartless bitch
...
i had my regrets
this is the biggest
but i never feared mistakes i made
i could never tell how low i stooped
until i turned back and visited the past
how cruel i had been
...
truth is
laughter is a reflex response to fear
i was a
vicious, treacherous little witch
...
i could feel the utmost disappointment when people starts reading this post
...
with the deepest regrets
i bow my head so low
and
i compunctiously say,
"I deserve all the fucks you gave me while i was that smiling evil little bitch,"
i didnt know
i swear
im truly and deeply sorry
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
oh and btw, johan and i are still keeping in touch
he's too good a person to let go just like that
02:31
