my gut just turned right back in
he finally uploaded his pic on facebook havent seen him for the longest time
my ex-boyfriend's a model now one of those times where you stop and think back "What happened?" then AH! it hit me. hit me HARD damn i dumped the guy without mercy slaughtered his heart right through and through smack him right in the face throw him hard against the wall squeeze the life out of his sweet sweet heart and turned his saccharine personality into a cursing fit vulgarities thrown at me hatred disappointment disgust immense angst . . . even so it catalyzed no reaction in me no wait guess wad my first reaction was? laughter. i fucking laughed at your absolute abhorrence what the fuck am i? i had a stone cold heart man wad the bloody hell was i made of? wad a bitch im a bitch a fucking heartless bitch ... i had my regrets this is the biggest but i never feared mistakes i made i could never tell how low i stooped until i turned back and visited the past how cruel i had been ... truth is laughter is a reflex response to fear i was a vicious, treacherous little witch ... i could feel the utmost disappointment when people starts reading this post ... with the deepest regrets i bow my head so low and i compunctiously say, "I deserve all the fucks you gave me while i was that smiling evil little bitch," i didnt know i swear im truly and deeply sorry . . . . . . . . oh and btw, johan and i are still keeping in touch he's too good a person to let go just like that
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