- mizzhaily turns red

trying too hard

im a lyricist
i like meaningful lyrics
meaningless songs like yours
shouldnt be the most viewed vid in youtube
you still sound awful
your music sucks
your lyrics' stupid
your genre's all wrong
the only good thing about you
is
your husband
haha
...
i have an issue
but
i dont know how to put it
maybe you're still young
maybe im just sick
maybe you think you're good at what you're doing
maybe i think you got a long way to go
huh..
you want to be known
you want to be seen
you want to be praised
you want to show off
all i see is you trying too hard
i want to barf
i want to smirk
i want to snigger
i dont know whether i shud laugh out loud
or shud i?
i dont know.
it doesnt make me run for my money
it does not.
i might be wrong
maybe im right.
i still dont know.
im thinking
its not a competition anymore
im bored
extremely bored
im dying
im dragging myself to places
to the wrong places
please dun call yourself a bunch of designers
with the shit ass job you did for a poster
its embarrassing
its a shame where you actually came from
cause
it is also where i come from
this is controversial
can i do better?
hell yeah.
shud i prove it to you?
hell no.
what will i receive in the end?
im just glad i wasnt part of it.
part of you.
part of all of you.
heh.
...
yesterday
or was it 2 days ago?
hell who cares?
i stood in front of the mirror
and
tried to smile
i cant.
for a mere second i tried to hold that stupid muscle
to stay smiling
it was too much to bear
i released
i tried smiling again
my cheeks trembled
my brows were knitted into a frown
i was concentrating too hard
my face's all screwed up
it's all going to a wrong expression
with the wrong intention
and my face got tired
i gave up.
my face is made fierce.
i will never smile again
or
even try smiling
i dont know why i even bothered.

ciao

01:37